puppy please?

Awwww crap. I'm blogging again. I am starting to see a pattern.

Today was a bad day. Starting with sleeping through my morning work out.. to Sarah pounding on my window....

and waking up from a terrible wonderful dream..

You know when you wake up late and you are all panicked? Its stressful. I feel like its a minor heart attack. 

So like... I was panicked from waking up late, scared from Sarah breaking in my window, confused about my dream and super grumpy because I wasn't ready for the dream to end annnnd tired because I only slept three hours.

Waking up from good dreams is the worst.

Then clinic sucked. No, I sucked.

I started having all these doubts. 

Do I really wanna spend my life cleaning teeth?

Do I really wanna wear scrubs to work every day?

Do I really wanna be in a dentist office every day?

What about travelling. I love to travel. 

How about I be a gypsy? This thought keeps returning.

I could totally just run away with someone and travel the world forever.

Never come back?

But then I'd miss my family I guess.

What about kids. I love kids.

I want to be a teacher.

Or maybe not.

I wanna write a book.

I wanna move away.

I don't wanna be here.

But I do love it here.

What about Carly Rae Jepsen? I wanna be famous like her and hang out with the Biebs.

I wanna have blonde hair for one day... but not ruin my own hair in the process.

I miss my long hair but I hated it.

Bad days make me question everything.

I know life is about well.

figuring out what you want.

Realizing if its right, and readjusting.. trying again.

And I have a feeling my life is going to require a lot more adjustments before I figure it out.

Well, today I don't know.

I'll finish school. Duh.

But seriously.

All I know is I'm lonely and I want a puppy to snuggle.

So cute.

And if I could have a repeat of my dream last night I wouldn't be mad.

In fact, that would be quite lovely.

Blah.