I only blog when I'm sad.

Okay that title was a bit dramatic. It's all good. But really, if I look at the course of my life paralleled with the course of my blog, and it's pretty obvious. When I'm happy and things are good and right and perfect in life, I pretty much vanish. Then BAM. I'm back... and it's always when something isn't quite right...
I've learned that life only goes the way I want it to when I don't acknowledge that it's the way I want it to go. Now, that might not make ANY sense to anyone else, but it does to me. Honestly. Things have only ever fallen into place for me when I don't expect them to, don't care if they do, or just haven't even thought about things enough to know how I want them to be. It's when I think I have life figured out, think I know what I want, and actually believe I can reach out and take hold it.. that's when I have to be careful.
So.. I'm just going to make everything clear, just to be careful.

No, I'm not engaged!! And I won't be any time soon! And yes people ask me that numerous times a day. So feel free to pass that info along to everyone who is curious. Kay thanks.
I don't know where I'm going in the fall.
I don't know where I will be working or living.
I don't know if I'm going back to school someday.
I don't have any job prospects as a hygienist. None. Zero. Zip.
I don't know where I see my life five years down the road.
I'm really not even sure what I'm going to do for the long weekend.

And I'm just not even going to worry about any of it.. because thats when things just seem to work out best for me. =)


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