mondays music and a little snape.

I stole this song from Chanel. It's most definitely a keeper.
Thanks Chanel! I just had to pass it along again.
Happy Music Monday blogworld!

aand this cracks me up for some reason.


a thousand more. =)

If anyone ruins this song for me like "Jar of Hearts" was ruined for me I will be very upset.
This means. Don't try to sing like her. It doesn't work.
Don't overplay it.
 Don't butcher it. Just enjoy.
Okaythanks. =)

Ps. Don't mind the "Breaking Dawn" scenes throughout the video. haha


Sorry Steph, I know how much you hate long posts.

My best friend turned twenty today. That frightens me a little bit. 
This photo of us from six years ago also frightens me a little bit.

I remember the moment Steph and I became friends. I think she remembers too.
"Wanna come color?"
I sat beside Malarie Bevans and the three of us just immediately hit it off.
Yep. We were in grade four. 
It all just went from there.
In grade five her classroom was the one next to mine, but despite the distance, we remained best friends.
I remember she wrote a story every week about George and Martha. Just a lil tidbit of info for ya.
Sometime that year we moved into Bianca's house too I'm pretty sure.
We played Nancy Drew every weekend.. all weekend? 
and we actually played it. Like make believe. She was always Phillip.
The random old guy.
In grade six we really hit our prime I believe. Skippin recess to play cards and such.
We sure lived it up. Sometimes I used to miss grade six. Then I remembered how terrible we were.
One time Stephanie farted in music and because I was sitting next to her, she pointed at me.
Everyone believed her. Terrible. I forgave her though. It was funny.
In grade seven our desks were still separated by brick walls and our lockers were separated by E through Q. We managed to stay friends.
This year we both lost a best friend.
I think we cried each other to sleep at night.
Maybe I just cried and Steph stared at me and didn't know what to do.
Just kidding. We were both devastated. But I think we were closer because of it.
I'm pretty sure Steph use to always have dreams about me being really mean to her. I am hoping these were always just dreams and I wasn't ever that mean to her.
Ask her about them. She may even still have them.
Grade eight I was a lame-o best friend to Steph, but she always stayed a perfect-o best friend to me.
Stephanie was the most loyal friend I ever met. Even ask my mom. She will tell ya. 
She wins that award easy-peasy.
In grade nine I think we had some classes together. Which was nice, although it made no difference because we were besties anyway. We did football stats together this year. It was a lovely time.
She was always there when I'd cry. Never offering advice, because thats not what she did.
But she listened.
Sometimes you don't want advice, ya know?
Just a listener. She's the best. And I was a drama-queen. It's embarrassing.
She loved me anyway.
In grade ten, I remember in CALM class we took these personality quizzes and such.
We always ended up at opposite ends of the spectrum. We decided thats what made us such good friends, ya know?
She toned down my annoyingness. She was good for me.
I like to think I brought out some good qualities in her too, but it's hard to say. She was good for me though, thats for sure.
In grade eleven we had our separate lives because I decided to be a cheerleader and she did not.... but still kept close. I think this was the year I got all ten seasons of F.R.I.E.N.D.S for Christmas.
Did you know we watched every.single.episode together? Yep. All 238 episodes. Plus the bonus features.
In grade twelve we decided to go and graduate. We were closer this year than the previous. I remember asking myself why I spent so many weekends without her during grade eleven. 
We danced together. We cried together. We were Fireflies together. We ripped T-shirts together.
I think dancing together brought us very close.
She even helped me when I sucked at remembering the dances. She was such a fast learner.
She had a side of the bed at my house you know. Toothbrush? I forget. Maybe at one point.
I drove her around. I liked driving her around... and she hated driving around.
After we graduated after a few turn of events, we both ended up living at home for another year.
We decided to go to California and also dragged along our other two best friends with us. 
Stephanie loves Disneyland like I love Disneyland.
Stephanie also loves musicals more than I love musicals, I'm pretty sure.
But we saw Lion King together, where we may or may not have shed a tear or two.
And now? Steph has bought me a ticket for Beauty and the Beast in December.
She's the best, isn't she.
Okay. I could go on forever, because Stephanie has been my best friend since forever.
Now, Stephanie turned twenty today, and she is in North Carolina and I am in Texas.
And it's odd.
I would very much like her to confuse my nose with a teddy bear or wake up with a heavy metal ball in her chest or perhaps drink a Barqs by my side tonight.
I miss her terribly, and I cannot wait to see her face on Dec 21.


just be happy.

I haven't been a very avid blogger lately.
I have been busy living life.
It's been grand.

I like this lovely little thought quite a lot.

Don't mind if I do. 



A Day for the Music Monday Blogging Books.

I think this is most appropriate for today. It being Music Monday and Mistletoe Monday all in one day? What a celebration.

Released Monday October 17, 2011

 Go buy it!


post-thanksgiving thankfulness.

I have so much to be grateful for. It was thanksgiving last week and I didn't even take the chance to write a post on all that I have to be grateful for.

My family. I am so blessed. My family is perfect for me, and I'm pretty sure I am perfect for them. We are quirky. Maybe we do things different then a lot of families, but we love each other, and that is what is most important. I miss them terribly and I cannot wait to be back with them for Christmas.

The gospel. I don't know where I would be without the gospel in my life. All of the blessings I have can be directed back to my Father in Heaven. I am blessed with the knowledge and comfort that the gospel brings me and I am who I am because of the goodness the gospel brings into my life.

My roommates. Bailey Brooke is honestly the best roommate you could ever ask for. She makes me breakfast. She doesn't get mad when I leave things on the floor. She lets me shower first. She sprays pretty perfume that makes our room smell good. She stays up late and listens to me vent when I am frustrated and she jumps with excitement when I am happy. Becky is also a gem. She is the biggest sweetheart you will ever meet and her testimony inspires me. She is so strong and her dedication to school and the gospel makes me strive to be a better person. I am so so lucky to have such amazing girls to spend all my time with and I love them both dearly.

My best friends. I have a handful of best friends. Though we are thousands of miles away from each other, I know they are always there for me and I hope they know I am there for them too. I cannot wait until we are reunited in our red onesies and share more memories together. I miss you all.

Cody Clay. Cody's dedication to his mission makes me strive to be a better person each and every day. Every time I hear from him I am reminded of the sacrifices he is making to serve our Heavenly Father. I love seeing how much he has changed and I love being able to change as well. I love his positive attitude and his love for being a missionary.

The Canadians. There are more people that I spent my time with down here in Texas besides my roomies. Matt, Sarah, Becca, and Jordi. I am so grateful for this little family I have down here to spend my time with. I love doing everything together. I love watching movies together and eating together and having FHE together and causing problems together and laughing together and studying together. Everyone combined is one of my main sources of strength.

Ohh there are so many more things I could list. I am grateful for friendship. Forgiveness. Heartache. Love. Prayers. Life. Happiness. I am so happy to be me.


of course.

Life is funny sometimes
Or maybe not-so-funny.
I expected it.
I knew it.
I waited for it.
I called it
and it happened.

But you know what?
There must have still been one little pathetic flicker of hope inside me.

Because somehow?
It still hurt.



Soo all I can seem to listen to these days is country music?..

It's like.
Country music makes you miss something or someone. 
Not even anyone in particular.
But just a feeling of missing something.
Call me crazy.
OKAY. So. 
An announcement...
I will officially be attending a concert on November 3rd...


I'm so freaking excited.
I can't even think of a concert I'd rather attend right now.

And for a moment
We made the world stand still


I have an announcement.

Dear Blogworld and those of you who are not apart of the blogworld but creep my blog anyway,

I think it's time ya'll know.
We are often known as "Mormons"
but that does not define everything we are.

I want to write a bit on what I believe know.
God knows me.
He knows what makes me sad.
He knows why I cry.
He knows my fears.
He knows how I feel. 
Every minute of every day.
He knows what brings me complete happiness.
He wants to help me to keep that happiness

"For God so loved the world that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.
For God sent not his Son into the world to condemn the world; but that the world through him might be saved."
John 3:16-17

I know that I make mistakes.
I am far from perfect.
I think the wrong thing.
I say the wrong thing.
I do the wrong thing.
I am who I am.
But I know
that there is a way to become clean again.
I know
Christ suffered all I have suffered for my sins so I am able to have eternal life.
I know
that by staying close to God, and keeping His commandments
He will help me remain on the right path.
He will help me make decisions.
He will comfort me when I am sad.
He will calm my troubled heart.
He will bless me.
and He will forgive me.
People can judge my mistakes.
They can judge my actions.
They can judge me for things I say or things I do.
Things I might have said in the past. Or done in the past.
But that doesn't matter 
because I know
if I keep the commandments,
I will be able to return to my Father in Heaven again.
I will be able to thank His son for all that he suffered for me.
I will be able to experience joy beyond mortal comprension.
I will be able to be with my family
I will be able to be with the love of my life
—whomever he may be—

I also know that YOU can have this happiness and knowledge too.
By simply asking in faith
you will receive the same knowledge.
I say these things in the name of Jesus Christ, Amen.


The wisdom of the upper east side?

Call me ridiculous...
I'm so pleased Gossip Girl has returned into my life.
For those of you who haven't seen it?
I bet you would never guess it could be so insightful.

"Maybe it's not blood bonds that make us family. Perhaps it's the people who know our secrets and love us anyway so we can finally be ourselves."
- Gossip Girl


makes sense.

The other day my roommate was giving our FHE lesson and she was elaborating on a talk that was given in an Ensign from 1999. I'm afraid I don't know the talk and when I asked her she couldn't find it. Excuse me for not giving the wise soul who spoke these words the proper credit. If I ever find it again I'll be sure to come edit this. What's important is the fabulous words that were spoken that have stuck with me all week.

"Real love is charity, and it is only obtained through the love of Christ. When exercising charity, we come to know a person's heart. When we know a person's heart, we are different. We won't judge them. We won't hold grudges. We won't take offense. We will simply love them."

I've got to stop thinking.

but it kind of all makes sense, right?


You flew out.

How are you still here?


the real music monday.

I'm afraid my blog is turning solely into music posts.
I accidentally found this gem today.
Love when that happens.


Music Monday a day early.

Okay. It isn't Monday, but I have been waiting three days to share this song and I can't wait another minute because it is THAT good.

I am in love with every single aspect of this song.

Lost and Found - Katie Herzig

I know you left me standing there 
Out of the calm of the coldest air 
I don't believe the words you said 
But I can't find the words I want 
Oh, I can't find the words I want 

If you were gone in another life 
I don't believe I would just survive 
I could feel you next to me 
An escape from the world I'm in 
Oh, I'm afraid of the world I'm in 
One day I will see Heaven's reach 
I'll find the one who left me sleeping 
Every war was another seed 
That could feed every soul in need 
Oh, I'm worn by the war in me 

Somebody found me here 
Somebody held my breath 
Somebody saved me from the world you left 
If you're gonna cry my tears 
If you're gonna hold my breath 
If you're gonna let me see the sun you set 
Oh, I am lost and found 
Oh, I am lost and found 

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