why oh why.

 I've posted about this so many times before, but seriously another time doesn't hurt right? =)
People are the worst sometimes. 
Yes, they are also the best sometimes but right now they are the worst.

[[one]] Stop jumping to conclusions
[[two]] Stop assuming the worst
[[three]] Stop being cruel
[[four]] Stop caring for the wrong reasons
[[five]] Stop telling everyone things you don't know.

It's driving me crazy.

That is all.

just because.

sidenote: true story.
now I know.


sometimes my head gets lost.

Sometimes I'm really dumb..
I have no idea where my head was today.
You see, today, I did this dumb thing.
At work, we have this van we drive around. At the end of the day, one of the girls I work with asked me if I would return the keys to the kiosk. I thought to myself, "I'm going to forget to put them away."
I took the keys from her and dropped them in my pocket and went into the kiosk.
I got home a while later and reached my hand in my pocket and there were the van keys. I panicked a little bit, sent my boss a text to tell him that I had them and then tried to figure out how to get them there the next morning by 7:30am. I don't work until 11am. (sidenote. I work in Waterton. It's 35 min away.) I then got a phone call from a girl at work. 
"Hey.. do you know where the keys are?"
I answered with a yes.. and let her know I had them. I apologized. She figured she could do without them the rest of her shift. Meanwhile, I was failing at finding a way for the keys to get back to Waterton. I decided I would just drive them back.
I pull up to the kiosk and hand Laurie the keys. She smiles and as she is taking the keys from my hand, she says, "the van keys.. wait.. do you know where the EP3 keys are?"
sidenote: EP3 keys are important. Storage room keys and what not.
I then realize that the phone call earlier was in fact not about the van keys but about the EP3 keys. I then think about where the EP3 could be. Who was the last one to open a storage room...
No idea.
Then I have a memory of Jenn tossing me the keys in the last few minutes of work. I realize I maybe had the keys.
So, I tell her it's possible I have them.
She laughs. Not a big deal... 
but kind of.
I come home and reach into the pocket of my work pants and there are the EP3 keys.

Sometimes I wonder about my brain.. 
The end.


more please.

Today was perfect. The sun was shining and I didn't even have to work.
I was able to get lunch with my long lost friend Spring.
I also had five cent candy thanks to Spring.
I talked to my mom on the phone for an hour. I miss her.
I suntanned.
I made decisions. 
I had dinner with my dad.
I saw a play.
I [briefly] skyped with my other long lost friend Ryann. 
And. I did something I have not done for a very long time.
I read a lovely book. {The Wednesday Letters. Read it.}
More days like today would be just fine I think.

Sidenote: I think Mark possibly fixed my facebook.. He must have seen my post.


Where is Mark when you need him.

Facebook is playing tricks on me.
Not cool.

Exhibit A:

OH hi.. there I am.. no problems..

Exhibit B

I'm gone.
 Just a white shadow with a grey background.
It does this back and forth and back and forth all the time.

First my wall posts.
Now my photos.

I tried filing a "bug report" in the help center.
This is what I got back.

Suuureeee you read them. I sent them another one. Same thing.

I tried something new.

I tried tagging him but clearly he doesn't like being tagged in things. 
Or maybe he doesn't like being tagged by people who only half-exist according to facebook.
If anyone knows how to reach Mark please let me know.
Or if you know how to exist on facebook 24/7 instead of just 12/7 please let me know.

sidenote: Creepy internet pedophile: 
You now know where I live and where I went to school. 
I'm moving in twenty five days so you best come find me quick.



Ever feel like the opinions of everyone else are so strong that you can't quite figure out your own?
Like everyone else has been so quick to tell you what they think
or what they think you should think
or assume what you are going to do 
or ask what you think
that you can't even put a finger on what it is you think of the situation
because you just haven't had the time to think about it yet?

I feel as if I have been bombarded by the thoughts of others recently
and my own thoughts have been swallowed up in a river of very strong opinions
and the current keeps carrying them away.

I just don't know what to think.

Music Monday Button.

As some of my readers know I started doing a post every Monday with the theme of Music Monday.  I pick a lovely song to share with the blogosphere. Yesterday, a blogfriend left this comment.

I have never made a button before, so a button I have now made
 and it looks like this.
Find it on the sidebar of my blog!
If you want to join Music Monday, here is your chance. =)

IMPORTANT COPYRIGHT DISCLAIMER: I did not come up with Music Monday. I have seen it on many blogs, but never did see a button to grab. I am not taking credit for coming up with the Music Monday theme. I simply created a button that my blogfriends could use. Whoever was the original Music Monday inventer, I give them full credit.


ohh its a lovely Monday for Mussiiiicccc

Well. It's Monday.
I have been song hunting. =)

If you like Country:

Not country.

Okay and Carson showed me a song which I loovveeeeee now.
Props to him.

Okayyy and my favorite song for Music Monday is.
Drumroll please.

Of course he wins.

sidenote I: I love Joshua Radin .so.so.so.so. much.

sidenote II: If the whole blogosphere joined in on Music Monday the world would be a more musical place.
And then I could find more music to listen to.  
Think about it. The end. 


K x2.

I'm really glad Kate exists because:
1. She gives me part of her lunch when I don't have one.
2. She thinks headless skunks on the road are as hilarious as I do.
3. She eats weird food.
4. I'm not sure anyone else would listen to me rattle on in circles about the same thing for as long as I did today.
5. She doesn't judge me for being stupid sometimes and I know anything I say will actually stay between the two of us.

I'm really glad Karlee exists because:
1. She makes really good food and let's me sit and watch her make it, and then lets me eat it.
2. She is the biggest sweetheart ever.
3. She is going to cook things and then let me pay her to pretend I cooked them.
4. She is so motivated and such a hard worker and she doesn't procrastinate. I'm pretty sure I did well in high school because of her.
5. She is steady. She knows what she wants and what she believes and doesn't change.

I'm not intentionally leaving anyone out, because I do have many best friends and I love them all, but I spent this weekend with mostly these two girls and I decided I needed to write how much I appreciated both of them the past couple days. Thank you both for being so understanding. =)

{sidenote} There are more than five reasons I am glad these girls exist.



This summer is odd.
No Big Deal...
I have a routine...
and my life will remain exactly how it has been for the past whoknowshowlong{predictable}.
Which is fine.
I wake up{early}.
I work. 
I do my homework{sometimes}. 
I catch up with my parents.
I take a nap.
I visit with friends.
I go back to bed.
I watch a movie until I fall asleep.
Oh, and Tuesdays I drive to Montana.
Okay, so I brush my teeth and stuff too. I just didn't want to get too many details. 
Long blog posts look overwhelming sometimes.
I like life just the way it is.

PS.  I'm leaving in thirty days. =)
PPS. excuse my nonsense post.


i love.

[i love] summer.
Do you love summer?
[i love] summer.
especially summer nights.

[i love] the heat.
[i love] the breeze that picks up at night.
[i love] the crickets chirping.
[i love] dancing in the parkinglot.
[i love] the clear skies.
[i love] the sunsets.
[i love] the long talks that last hours.
[i love] stargazing on the docks.
[i love] the fact that the sun stays up late.
[i love] the cruising around.
[i love] carelessness

summer nights are lovely;

These things are not so lovely without you.


favi whaat?

Did anyone notice my FAVICON. =)
Not gonna lie, I didn't know what a favicon was either...

You see it now?
So cute, right?
If you still don't see it...
it's the sunshine by my url.
Newest vocab word? Favicon. 



I like this photo for a number of reasons.
One. It is beautiful.
Two. I love writing.
Three. I write letters a lot.
Four. It reminds me of this new song I love.

Every day that comes; every year gone by writes the ballad of you and I... 

I love Mêlée.
There are a few favorites I would like to share in behalf of Music Monday.

It the kind of music I usually listen to, but today, I am a fan. Perhaps someone else in the blogging world can appreciate it too.

sidenote I. The Ballad of You and I is my favorite.
sidenote II. Karlee showed me the song. Of course. 



Who does that blondie look like friends?
Becky? Anyone? Kinda?
Well. I stumbled across this and it got me thinkin.

I love Becky.
Here is a real picture of us.
And yes we are wearing vests and cross ties and this is like five years old.
Don't judge.
We look good.

Beckshank. And yes, I came up with that.
Becky and I have been friends since about grade three if I can remember correctly.
Sometimes we did silly things like build forts in my bedroom
and watch mouse hunt.
That part where the man falls out of the coffin and lands in the sewer?
Horrible.. now that I think of it.
but once upon a time, nothing was funnier.
Becky was always shy when you first met her..
but then.. she was not.
We made a giant ball of tape, incase you were wondering.
I remember in grade three we used to sit by each other and I would always wear her blue sweater with the little flowers on it?
And she would share her pretzyls with me because I was always hungry.
I also remember going out to her house and being scared of her dog. She would throw snow in the air to distract the dog (I cannot remember the name for the life of me.. Sorrryy!) so I could run past.
Such a good friend to my eight year old self.
I also remember throwing a ball up and down the stairs at her house for house and hours on end.
And I also remember in grade seven we would sit by each other in science.
She made a basketball court structure at Katy's house once while Katy and I made a bridge.
I do not remember anything about that day except for we had a lot of fun and had a lot of sugar.
Becky always had good snacks.
We went to Choir provincials together and stayed in a room with Karen and Katy.
That was such a wonderful time..
until we all got sick.
Well, we got older. 
During that, we went out separate ways.
Graduating does that.
I decided to follow Becky though.
She decided to let me live with her in Texas.
I am so freaking excited.
Because it is Becky and she makes me laugh.

In just thirty four days. I will be moving right into this girls apartment.
I.Can't.Wait. =)



My best friend Steph decided to up and leave all of us this summer. Kidding. She had a good reason. But she is gone. And I am so sad.. do you want to know why? 
Well, she got a one way ticket. Who does that? She doesn't know when she is coming home. I may or may not never see her again. Steph isn't supposed to up and leave. Steph has been my best friend for just so long. Here are a few things that remind me of Steph.. or reasons I am going to miss Steph.. or just things about her. You know.

Fried Chicken = Fricken!
the heavy metal ball
my nose being a teddy bear
how we watched all 238 episodes of Friends together
Nancy Drew
I have bad news....
Happy, happy, happy, look at Miss Jodi..
how much she loves J.B.
The sing-a-long at the end of the other version of the Justin Bieber movie
how she bought me Gilmore Girls for my birthday
how she's always with me when I run red lights
How she is so obsessed with the ShayTards. I'mma start having to call her StephTard I think.
how no one can figure out her phone except for her..
how she could pick any phone in the whole store for free and she didn't pick an iPhone or a Blackberry, but some weird phone that I had never seen before because likes to be different.
He may or may not have the biggest calves I've ever seen...
Recess card games
the time she got me the best Christmas present ever and everyone was jealous
the time I got soo sick in Fairmont and she went swimming without me
she knows how Cody really sprained his wrist last summer
her signature dance moves at J High dances
when she bought me the movie. "He's Just Not That Into You".. she says it was unintentional. I'm positive she had ulterior motives. =)
how she dances with her mouth open sometimes
her love of Barqs rootbeer
how she used to hate reading but then she fell in love with Marcia Lynn McClures romance novels
because she just be so chill all the time
JBC and an order of nuggets
 how my dad thinks she doesn't ever eat
how she orders caesar salad whenever we go eat anywhere
how she went to every single one of her brothers games this year. she's the best older sister
how she'd ditch out on hanging out with me to hangout with her niece. she's also the best auntie
how she left her friends and her summer break to help her sister while she recovered. she's also the best younger sister.
how she says she just stayed home in the fall to do nothing.. but because of that decision, she is also the best daughter.
how she woke up at 2am to skype with Karlee, Kate and myself during our campout in my backyard.
how she says she doesn't have a job and  has no plans, even though she does.
how she genuinely doesn't care what people think. and i learn from her.

I could go on and on but I'm afraid it's almost by bedtime. Yes. I still go to bed early.
I hope I got my point across. Steph is my favorite. I miss her, and even though I don't know if I will see her again before I move to Texas, It's okay that she left me this summer.


everybody wear YELLOW

I love yellow... as I have mentioned a few times. Well. Look what I found via THIS blog.

I spent hours looking online for this yelllow skirt and matching top I bought at Jacob only last week, and I failed. I refuse to take a picture of myself wearing it because I am not a photographer and it would end up looking ridiculous.
However. I did find some fabulous photos of other yellow clothes that I adore.

Yellow is just a happy color. And it's summer!
So. Everybody? Embrace yellow.
And make the world a little bit happier. =)

photos found via weheartit.com


today today today.

I wrote a post earlier? People might have already read it.... but I think it was taken the wrooonnggg way so I'm going to work on re writing that so no one else is confused. okayy?

Today. I didn't work.
Today. I woke up early anyway.
Today. I did my laundry.
Today. I finished all my homework.
Today. I played cards with my family.
Today. I lost horribly.
Today. I thought about writing Ryan a letter but I don't know his MTC box number. Anyone?
Today. I wasted a lot of time.
Today. I miss Codyclayfogginawholelot.
Today. I caught up with Ryannnnnn finally.
Today. I didn't even nap.
Today. I went visiting teaching.
Today. I sneezed too much.
&& it was a good day. =)

Uhh and I just think this picture is hilarious and I will be doing this sometime very soon. Hahahahahah.

Oh. and today is Music Monday. =)
I like these songs todayy..

Country lovers:

Something new to listen to:

For today: =)



Promise not to lie or erase any of these questions?
no promises. haha

If you married the last person that texted you, what would your name be?

Do you know anyone named matt ?

What smiley face do you use often?

Honestly, have you ever ate raw cookie dough?
honestly? who hasn't

Who were you with friday night?
my whole family.

What is bothering you?

Whats your favorite kind of ice cream?
raspberry sherbet

Would you ever get a tattoo?

Is there a difference between "best"friend and friend?
yes, one is a best and one is not.

Do you take walks often?
not anymore.

Fluent in?

Are any of your friends taller than you?
ohh jus the majority.

Do you crack your knuckles?

Spell your name with out an L:
It doesn't change. this was lame.

Do you like hugs?

Who was your last one from?
My sister

This time last year, can you remember who you liked?
oh yes.

What are you listening to right now?
Red Red Rose by The Weepies

Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
heck if I know.

Did you copy and paste this survey?
why yes.. 

How do most people spell your name?
people don't really spell my name. ya know?

Ever been to Georgia (the state)?

Does anyone know your password besides you?
hmm..  I don't think so.

Have you ever dated a football player?
once upon a time.

Last person to make you smile?

Feel like talking to someone you haven't in a while?
haha. always actually.

Expecting something to change in a month?
lets see.. August 10th? Nope.

Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you?
My pajamas

Is there anything you should be doing right now?
laundry. sleeping.

Have you ever gone out of your way to make someone happy?
I believe so. =)

Do you have a reason to smile right now?
everrry dayyy.

Is there someone who can ALWAYS make you smile?
of course.

Excited for anything?
a loooot! August. and September. And Christmas. and my 20th birthday. Wait what? ..

Has someone recently told you something you didn't want to hear?
not that I can recall.

Will tomorrow be a good day?
oh yes. days off never fail me.

Are you sober?

Are you wearing something that belongs to someone else?
haha basicallyy always? yes.

Are you in a good mood right now?
more good then not.

Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?
People make mistakes. If I didn't give second chances I'd be a hypocrite. If people didn't give me second chances my life would be miserable, so I best give them out as well yeah?

Would you rather get high or be able to fly?
fly. definitely.

Do you know what you want to be when you grow up?
I want to be a happy woman. and I will be. =)

Do you wish someone would turn up at your front door right now?
nope. haha

Do you regret anything?

Who was the last person you had a face to face conversation with?

What were you doing at 12 am last night?

Do you have any tattoos?

What's in your wallet?
some cash. some cards. 

What's on that way top shelf or in the very far back of your closet?
hahaha. an Ugg box with old letters and old items that I need to get rid of. and my other closet has a box of clothes I hid so I wouldn't wear so I would forget about them and then feel like I had new clothes when I remembered they were there.
I obviously am failing at forgetting about them.

Do you sleep with anything?
my found teddy bear. Yes. I found my teddy bear. Post to come soon. =)

Has someone ever called you beautiful?

Are you wearing short shorts?
nuh uh.

Do you miss anyone?
story of my life.

Do you like messages or comments better?
commeennts please!

What are you drinking?

Love really is a beautiful thing, huh?
why yes.

Did anything dramatic go down yesterday?
my life is anything but dramatic these days.

Are you afraid to stay home all alone?
not gonna lie. if I think about it too much I really freak myself out sometimes.

Did you ever walk away from someone that was yelling at you?
yeah. usually doesn't go over so well.

Do you ignore people when you're mad/upset with them?
yeah. that tends to be my reaction.

Has anyone licked you in the past week?
well no.

When you say you dont care do you mean it?
ehhh its about 50/50

Do you plan on sleeping in tomorrow?
compared to how early I usually have to wake up, eight is sounding amazing.

How often do you hold back from saying what you are thinking?
not that much I don't think.

What were you doing at 12:30 this afternoon?
Crandell Campground Kiosk

Who do you go to when you need to talk to someone?
usually I go to sleep. haha

What is on your wrists right now?

Did you sleep alone last night?

Have you ever felt lonely?

How many hours of sleep did you get last night?

Reason for the last tear shed?



You know what's odd?
It's July 9th. 
Cody is 21% done his two years in Puerto Rico.
Five months.
150 days.

Almost 1/4. 
Over 1/5.
Oddddddd. Time goes faster every day.

But there is something else that is odd.
You see. Cody is lost.
Yep. No idea where he is.
I have never been to Puerto Rico or anything
 so I guess I never "know" where he is exactly..
But at least I normally have a name of a place.
Or an address?
Lemmmee explain.
Cody got transferred to a new area last Wednesday. ...
but all he knew when he emailed home was that he was getting transferred.
It's odd.
I don't know where he is.
San Juan?
Back in Bayamon?
.. or like. the Virgin Islands?
Africa? (it could happen)
I just have no idea.
Does anyone else out there know?
I guess I'll find out Wednesday.

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