4.02.2012

overdue.

Welp. I knew this was coming for a while now.
My blog is a place where I blog my little heart out.
Literally.
And today this is whats in my heart.
I miss Cody.
Say whaaa?
I dont know what it is this week, but its been a long time since I've missed him like this.
Perhaps due to the fact that I got a little lost in life. Perhaps because he is so focused, which is just so awesome. Perhaps because we communicate less and less. Perhaps because thats just what happens when two people go this long without seeing each other.
Whatever it is, it's all catching up to me.
My heart hurts today. 
I found myself snuggled in bed reading a letter I received from him just a few weeks after he had been away.
Confession. I teared up. haha
I don't tell him I miss him anymore, and he doesn't tell me either. We both figured it was better that way, and I think it is. I can tell him after he gets home. It makes it much easier.
Except this week. He told me he missed me this week. Thats probably whats making me this way.
Hearing that just makes everything seem so real.
Bittersweet.

Jus a few little stories that I have been reminded of this week.
Story number one. April fooools. Two years ago, Cody and I had been dating for about two and a half months by April Fools. We were "facebook official", you know, such a big deal. Hahah.
I vividly remember sitting in English class and receiving a text from a friend asking when Cody and I broke up. I was so confused. I got onto facebook.. naturally.. only to discover that he dumped me! On facebook. Little turd. 
Good thing it was just a joke. He thought he was so funny. 
I smiled about that all April Fools this year. =)

Story number two.
Once upon a time I was living and working in Waterton and Cody was at home in Magrath for the weekend. It was Sunday night and I was super bored and just curled up in front of the TV to watch a movie. We were texting and I was sad that we couldn't hang out that night because I had worked late and you know, it just didn't work out. All night I had been joking about him making a teleporting device so he could magically be in Waterton so I could see him. About ten minutes into my movie, Cody calls me and says, "Guess what! I finished my teleporting device. Look out your window!" noowww Cody thinks hes a little trickster so I didn't get too excited. Well, I tried not to. I laughed at him and told him not to trick me because it was mean to get me excited for nothing. All he said was.. "No really. Look outside." I ran out the door to the balcony of the apartment to find Cody standing with the phone up to his ear with a big smile on his face. Best surprise ever. 

That, ladies and gentlemen, is my best friend. I miss him today, and I am so excited for him to come home, even though its not for 10 more months. 

Okay. Now that I've shared a little piece of my soul, I will stop again because I don't like doing this very often. 


5 comments:

  1. Jane!

    Oh my goodness.. right at the very end of this post where it read "10 months.." I could have sworn I read 10 days... My heart nearly skipped a beat for you.. How amazing it will feel to have Cody home.. time goes by fast.. it's such a cliche, but it's oh so very true.

    Life happens fast & before you know it you will have another story to tell.. like how he came home & it was far better than you could have ever imagined.

    Stay strong.. keep busy & keep smiling!

    Loads of hearts, blog buddy!

    - xo, Josabet.

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  2. i love this post...even though its a sad one, that sounded rude. i just like hearing about you and him, he sounds wonderful. and i like how i can relate. its nice to feel that way.

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  3. cute stories :) Hard days come but remember its another day down!! :D

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  4. This melted my heart... I want a love like cody and Jane =)

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