Awwww crap. I'm blogging again. I am starting to see a pattern.
Today was a bad day. Starting with sleeping through my morning work out.. to Sarah pounding on my window....
and waking up from a
terrible wonderful dream..
You know when you wake up late and you are all panicked? Its stressful. I feel like its a minor heart attack.
So like... I was panicked from waking up late, scared from Sarah breaking in my window, confused about my dream and super grumpy because I wasn't ready for the dream to end annnnd tired because I only slept three hours.
Waking up from good dreams is the worst.
Then clinic sucked. No, I sucked.
I started having all these doubts.
Do I really wanna spend my life cleaning teeth?
Do I really wanna wear scrubs to work every day?
Do I really wanna be in a dentist office every day?
What about travelling. I love to travel.
How about I be a gypsy? This thought keeps returning.
I could totally just run away with someone and travel the world forever.
Never come back?
But then I'd miss my family I guess.
What about kids. I love kids.
I want to be a teacher.
Or maybe not.
I wanna write a book.
I wanna move away.
I don't wanna be here.
But I do love it here.
What about Carly Rae Jepsen? I wanna be famous like her and hang out with the Biebs.
I wanna have blonde hair for one day... but not ruin my own hair in the process.
I miss my long hair but I hated it.
Bad days make me question everything.
I know life is about well.
figuring out what you want.
Realizing if its right, and readjusting.. trying again.
And I have a feeling my life is going to require a lot more adjustments before I figure it out.
Well, today I don't know.
I'll finish school. Duh.
All I know is I'm lonely and I want a puppy to snuggle.
And if I could have a repeat of my dream last night I wouldn't be mad.
In fact, that would be quite lovely.